關於 love and other drug ，我們在網路上蒐集到這些相關的討論、資訊與評價

A few years ago, a couple, friends of mine from England, came to visit. We hung out a lot during their stay. I even introduced them to my guy at the time. Everything seemingly went swimmingly. But while we were out partying one night, the wife uttered something that really took me aback.

She said, rather condescendingly, "Well Rozz, you may be happily in love now, but this won't last - he won't stay with you, and he won't take care of you. But we are your friends, and we will take care of you when you're old."

Like I'm some pathetic loser who can't take care of myself.

Anyway, 2 years after their visit, I heard the couple divorced. The wife's drug addiction spiraled and she lost custody of her baby which some other man fathered, and she even ended up in the mental asylum for some time.

But according to her, I'M the one who needs taking care of?

#Rozz #Music #Live #Singer #Jazz #Soul #Drag #LGBT #BiduanitaDeDiva #Trans #Inspire #BeYou #BeTrue #BeProud #Motivate #NoFear #PRIDE #LGBTQIA #LoveIsLove #LoveYourself #Love #Singing #Sprezzatura #DragArtiste #DragPerformer #Vocalist #BornThisWay #Integrity #PurposeBeforeFame #ServiceBeforeCelebrity

手寫信的溫度。暖心。
9月歌單【好事自在Latte】

9/30(三)
2:04:07 PMGYM/自由發揮
2:08:09 PMLAST FRIDAY NIGHT/Katy Perry
2:14:55 PM我好嗎/梁靜茹
2:19:24 PM比我幸福/陳曉東
2:23:45 PMGive Love/AKMU 樂童音樂家
2:32:13 PMyour love is my drug/Ke$ha
2:36:26 PM別哭小女孩/張震嶽
2:39:37 PM知己/王欣晨
2:48:28 PM不散不見/莫文蔚
2:52:11 PM愛上妳的眼眸 -Can't Take off You/三代目

3:04:08 PM我問天/翁立友
3:08:38 PMEternity/Robbie Williams
3:13:34 PM蹦蹦蹦/梁心頤
3:20:11 PM腳踏車/庾澄慶
3:24:02 PMShe Loves You/The Beatles
3:32:02 PMNaked/Ava Max
3:36:46 PM不能說的秘密/周杰倫
3:46:40 PMGoGo女王/李沛綾
3:51:38 PM邂逅/Chage & Aska

4:04:03 PM整個八月/張宇
4:07:37 PM不曾回來過/李千娜
4:12:01 PMLucky-Unlucky/Hey! Say! JUMP
4:19:35 PM哪邊涼快哪邊待/Erika 劉艾立
4:23:18 PML.A.LOVE/Fergie
4:32:02 PM末日之戀/張智成
4:36:36 PM第三人稱/蔡依林
4:42:23 PM怦然心動/AOA
4:53:32 PMStop Standing There/Avril Lavigne

🦋9/29(二)
2:04:46 PM國王皇后/大嘴巴
2:07:57 PMI Gotta Feeling/The Black Eyed Peas
2:15:26 PM怎麼能這樣/曾沛慈
2:20:15 PM靠近/元衛覺醒
2:23:54 PMD.D.D feat.Soulhead/倖田來未
2:33:11 PMUp all night/One Direction
2:37:07 PM有沒有/韋禮安
2:41:06 PM海鷗先生我愛你/魏如萱
2:50:02 PM連擊Combo/影子計劃
2:52:50 PMAll For You/Janet Jackson

3:04:46 PM心事誰人知/張惠妹
3:10:12 PMALWAYS/Wanna One
3:14:24 PM孤單芭蕾/許慧欣
3:21:19 PMLet's Lov/David Guetta
3:24:36 PMSay Yeah/藍心湄/謝和弦 LanDIVA
3:33:43 PMWANNA BE MYSELF/MAMAMOO
3:38:14 PM寂寞邊界/張棟樑
3:47:00 PM無人知曉/田馥甄
3:52:44 PMEenie Meenie/Craig David

4:03:56 PM你看你看月亮的臉/孟庭葦
4:08:04 PM在呼喊妳的名字之後/槙原敬之
4:12:45 PM太空船/吳青峰
4:18:53 PMWatermelon Sugar/Harry Styles
4:21:44 PM翻轉壞未來/李依瑾
4:30:45 PM幸福的形狀/蕭淑慎
4:34:23 PM有關係/劉恬君
4:39:59 PMIridescent/Linkin Park
4:52:20 PM戀/星野 源

9/28(一)
2:04:07 PMRAIN ON ME/Lady Gaga
2:07:08 PM沒辦法/黃立成/Machi
2:18:40 PM懼高症/徐佳瑩
2:22:58 PM從開始到現在/Ryu
2:27:21 PM沒人在聽/佛跳牆
2:31:06 PMDomino/Jessie J
2:36:01 PM太美麗/陶吉吉
2:40:50 PM看透/家家
2:45:43 PM知己/王欣晨
2:50:24 PM100萬年的幸福!!/桑田佳祐

3:04:08 PM甕仔雞/玖壹壹
3:07:12 PM飢/羅時豐
3:11:17 PMWell Well Well/Duffy
3:21:04 PMRealize/Colbie Caillat
3:25:00 PM想太多/蕭煌奇
3:39:38 PM廢廢/麋先生Mixer
3:44:57 PM我愛夏卡爾/江美琪
3:48:41 PM嘮叨/IU/Seul Ong
3:53:01 PMGoGo女王/李沛綾
3:57:59 PM我們都寂寞/陳奕迅

4:04:03 PM變/蘇芮
4:08:51 PM你會想念我嗎/蘇慧倫
4:12:49 PM奇蹟/可苦可樂
4:19:40 PMALL DAY/五堅情
4:23:03 PMDiamonds/Rihanna
4:32:08 PM可惜/郭靜
4:35:43 PM失戀學/林宇中
4:40:04 PMNever Gonna Give You Up/Rick Astley
4:52:24 PMI Feel You/大光

9/25(五)
2:03:56 PM真情人/李玟
2:07:57 PMMaria/Ricky Martin
2:15:09 PM蠢蛋/八三夭
2:19:22 PM盛夏的果實/莫文蔚
2:28:38 PMAlways Be My Baby/Mariah Carey
2:32:44 PM彎彎的月光/周蕙
2:37:10 PM3.6.5/EXO
2:45:00 PMLove Addict 戀愛依存症/中島美嘉
2:53:13 PM月光/楊瑞代

3:04:15 PM唉喲唉喲/江蕙
3:08:20 PMHot Hot Hot/Sebastian
3:14:28 PM安靜/周杰倫
3:19:52 PM我們不像我們/丁噹
3:23:54 PMGirls are back/少女時代
3:32:18 PM如果有一天/梁靜茹
3:36:51 PM只要你微笑/平井堅
3:41:28 PM人生地熟/呂士軒
3:49:06 PMSave room/John Legend
3:54:07 PM壞/艾怡良

4:03:57 PM為我照顧他/杜德偉
4:08:53 PMBeginning/Rain/韶宥
4:12:34 PM貓鼠遊戲/蔡健雅
4:18:17 PMJumpin Jumpin/Destiny's Child
4:21:55 PMParty/葛仲珊
4:30:26 PM旅．課/A-Lin
4:35:31 PM我還年輕 我還年輕/老王樂隊
4:40:59 PM再度回首/矢井田瞳
4:49:27 PMGod Is A Dancer/Tiesto/Mabel
4:52:12 PM365天/JPM

🥘9/24(四)
2:04:00 PMJust Walking In The Rain/Johnnie Ray
2:06:35 PM寫一首歌/蛋堡/方大同
2:10:02 PM叩卡遛/江靜
2:17:20 PM依然愛你/王力宏
2:21:19 PM留不下的/許維芳
2:25:29 PMOMG (Oh My God) /少女時代
2:30:30 PMI Believe I Can Fly/R. Kelly
2:35:09 PM我愛著就好/閻奕格
2:40:12 PMRemember/S.H.E
2:46:35 PM那種人/Marz23
2:52:09 PM水手服與機關槍/長澤雅美

3:04:15 PM後世人的查某囝/楊肅浩
3:07:28 PM一起搖擺吧/許哲珮
3:09:45 PM泳池畔的美人魚/V6
3:21:11 PM渺小/田馥甄
3:25:51 PM幾乎/曾之喬
3:30:06 PMIf Looks Could Kill/Timomatic
3:32:23 PMIDENTITY/雨的遊行
3:36:35 PM愛要有你才完美/那英
3:49:53 PM對愛入座/蔡佩軒/屁孩
3:54:09 PMMr.Simple/SUPER JUNIOR

4:03:57 PM真永遠/劉德華
4:07:59 PMIn Your Time/李秀賢
4:12:19 PM在你左右/吳莫愁
4:18:26 PMYou Smile/Sweetbox
4:21:56 PMPOSE/潘嘉麗
4:30:02 PM那女孩對我說/黃義達
4:34:37 PM曖昧/鄭可強
4:39:16 PMHey Baby/No Doubt
4:46:47 PM娛樂天空/陳奕迅
4:51:40 PMHey Ya!/Outkast

🍟9/23(三)
2:04:04 PM煩惱歌/張學友
2:08:12 PMTurn Up The Radio/Madonna
2:14:17 PM男人KTV/胡彥斌
2:19:01 PM藍色眼睛/梁文音/麋先生
2:23:34 PMSomething/東方神起
2:32:34 PMOMG What's Happening/Ava Max
2:36:38 PM城裡的月光/許美靜
2:41:52 PM又圓了的月亮/郭采潔
2:50:16 PM換句話說/HUSH
2:54:30 PMLovefool/The Cardigans First Band On The

3:04:08 PM台灣味/蕭煌奇
3:09:02 PMWake you up/島谷瞳
3:16:08 PM真朋友/鄭中基
3:20:29 PM真的傻/徐佳瑩
3:24:35 PMEverything To Lose/Dido
3:34:58 PMTurntables/Janelle Monae
3:38:45 PM都一樣/李榮浩
3:48:10 PM最難的是相遇/吳青峰
3:53:36 PMHot Summer/f(x)

4:04:03 PM心碎碼頭/凡人二重唱
4:08:57 PMEverything/MISIA
4:15:45 PM保險櫃/小春Kenzy
4:21:33 PMWhat a feeling/DJ Bobo/Irene
4:24:49 PM我想買可樂/Erika 劉艾立
4:32:16 PM天涯/任賢齊
4:38:09 PM知己/王欣晨
4:42:50 PM氧氣般的妳Love like oxyg/SHINe
4:50:40 PMYou See Me/The Lighters
4:54:15 PMThis Is The Last Time/Keane

🎃9/22(二)
2:04:00 PM你想娶我嗎/袁詠琳
2:07:16 PMDon't Worry About Me/瘦子E.SO
2:10:24 PMI Gotta Feeling/David Guetta
2:16:33 PM凝望/江美琪
2:20:10 PM怎麼了/周興哲
2:25:22 PMCrazy About You/迷你早安
2:33:03 PM他們/張惠妹
2:37:50 PMSomething Just Like This/The Chainsmokers
2:46:43 PMTempo/EXO
2:51:03 PM對愛入座/蔡佩軒/屁孩
2:54:11 PM你知道這不是愛/蔡詩蕓

3:04:15 PM最愛的人/李千娜/王大文
3:07:29 PM半生熟/品冠/戴佩妮
3:11:28 PM終極鬥志/愛的魔幻
3:17:03 PM這幾天/小宇-宋念宇
3:21:01 PMA Thousand Years/Christina Perri
3:31:32 PMBon voyage/YooA
3:35:20 PM愛我/游鴻明
3:39:39 PM那種人/Marz23
3:48:29 PM無名花/鄭心慈
3:52:43 PMWe Are The Champions/Robbie Williams

4:03:56 PM連回憶都不給我嗎?/彭羚
4:08:02 PM因為想念/CNBLUE-鄭容和
4:12:33 PMBIG GIRL/Selina
4:18:21 PM魔鏡/李玟
4:22:52 PMSweet Nothing /Calvin Harris
4:31:00 PM不想懂得/張韶涵
4:35:39 PM極光/徐哲緯
4:40:05 PMSHULABA-LA-BAMBA/南方之星
4:49:45 PM80/婁峻碩/高爾宣
4:52:18 PMWooHoo/Christina Aguilera

🍓9/21(一)
2:04:04 PMROMANLESS/婁峻碩
2:07:35 PMOMG What's Happening/Ava Max
2:12:53 PM知足/五月天
2:17:01 PM黑暗的盡頭/Crispy脆樂團
2:21:42 PMRed /Taylor Swift
2:29:49 PM別去問他好嗎/郭靜
2:34:00 PM被擋住的路/Red Cheek Pubery
2:39:16 PM下巴/舒米恩
2:47:34 PM天使的指紋/孫燕姿
2:51:33 PMAnd I Love You/Dreams Come True
2:53:21 PM甜甜的/周杰倫

3:04:08 PM傷心酒店/江蕙/施文彬
3:08:03 PM比從前想你了/Bii畢書盡
3:17:06 PM別廢話/袁婭維
3:20:03 PMSlave To The Rhythm/Michael Jackson
3:29:58 PM溫度/吳卓源/壞特
3:33:19 PM要不要/林憶蓮
3:38:33 PM跟你交往的理由/Kola
3:46:36 PM最難的是相遇/吳青峰
3:52:02 PM愛情/小柳由紀

4:04:03 PM背叛/鄭秀文
4:08:40 PM你能不哭了嗎/持修
4:11:28 PMTurn Around/Conor Maynard
4:17:39 PMBAD LADY/楊丞琳
4:20:50 PMHung Up/Madonna
4:28:52 PM說到愛/蔡健雅
4:33:11 PM愛你多一點 ft.KURO/槙原敬之/KURO
4:39:43 PM第一眼/獅子LION
4:49:59 PM當我們宅一塊/羅志祥
4:53:55 PMGood Bye Bye/NU'EST

👉9/18(五)
2:04:59 PM王妃/蕭敬騰
2:08:36 PMIt's My Life/Bon Jovi
2:15:05 PM不要害怕/王力宏
2:19:34 PM不愛自己的人/蔡佩軒
2:23:24 PMU 就是你/SUPER JUNIOR
2:32:15 PM你好嗎 天氣好嗎/鄧福如
2:35:38 PM孤單北半球/歐得洋
2:40:09 PMFriday/清水翔太
2:48:56 PM跪了/鼓鼓/吳卓源
2:53:46 PMWhere's your love/Craig David

3:05:19 PM保庇/王彩樺
3:08:58 PMSexy Love/T-ARA
3:15:27 PM夏天的風/元衛覺醒
3:19:53 PMBeautiful moon/10CM
3:29:14 PM我等你/劉若英
3:34:34 PMTHE GREATEST SHOW/大娛樂家
3:48:52 PMRAKUEN 樂園/平井堅
3:54:55 PM連擊Combo/影子計劃

4:04:52 PM我是真的愛你/李宗盛
4:09:21 PM遇見了你/陳奕迅
4:13:29 PMRed Queen/IU/Zion.T
4:19:51 PM不退/呂薔
4:23:45 PMStarships /Nicki Minaj
4:32:26 PM讓每個人都心碎/張惠妹
4:37:30 PMAlways Remember Us This/Lady Gaga
4:41:43 PM巴比倫/潘瑋柏
4:50:42 PM少女/林宥嘉
4:54:35 PMCrazy About You/迷你早安

🌳9/17(四)
2:04:37 PM愛像什麼/Ella陳嘉樺
2:08:03 PMFool/Red Velvet
2:14:41 PM回去吧/方炯鑌
2:18:12 PM路過人間/郁可唯
2:22:12 PMMy Love /The Bird and Bees
2:30:56 PMHula Hoop/OMI
2:34:25 PM曖昧/鄭可強
2:38:19 PM打電影/自由發揮
2:47:43 PM 新相信未來/動靜樂團
2:53:17 PMSo Crazy/安室奈美惠

3:04:15 PM上美麗的情歌/Lulu黃路梓茵
3:08:59 PM微涼的記憶/周傳雄
3:13:41 PMFaded/Alan Walker
3:21:10 PM給妳們/萬芳
3:24:50 PMNobody Knows/Boyzone
3:34:42 PM風箏/嵐
3:40:18 PM我愛台妹/MC HotDog
3:54:24 PMS.O.S./Avicii

4:03:56 PM不要對他說/張信哲
4:08:38 PM結婚吧/森山直太朗
4:11:38 PM關你屁事/佛跳牆
4:18:03 PMHavana/Camila Cabello
4:21:33 PMChina Reggaeton/黃明志/黃秋生
4:30:15 PM太多/陳綺貞
4:34:02 PM不再相愛的一天/ROY KIM
4:40:48 PM那種人/Marz23
4:48:56 PMSuger Suger_多情會有問題/馬毓芬
4:54:39 PMWhere The Streets Have No Name/Pet Shop Boys

🍳9/16(三)
2:04:31 PM是愛/陶晶瑩/方大同
2:08:01 PMOMG/Usher/Will.i.am
2:15:08 PM第一次/光良
2:19:24 PM諷刺的情書/田馥甄
2:23:26 PMStand Up/BTOB
2:32:01 PMRight here waiting/Richard Marx
2:36:19 PM別對我說以後/邱鋒澤
2:41:00 PM新的心跳/鄧紫棋
2:49:18 PM敏感/艾怡良
2:52:41 PMEVERCHiLD/色情塗鴉

3:04:07 PM心事/孫協志
3:08:30 PM陪著你/魏如萱
3:13:34 PMSwitch/AAA-末吉秀太
3:19:37 PM讀心術Mind Reading/痞克四
3:22:23 PMCharlie Brown/Coldplay
3:33:06 PMTick Tock/Clean Bandit/MaTick
3:37:07 PM旋木/王菲
3:50:05 PMDesperado/Eagles
3:54:43 PM連擊Combo/影子計劃

4:04:03 PM靠近/庾澄慶
4:08:51 PMSomeone Like You/Adele
4:13:29 PM巴比倫/潘瑋柏
4:20:09 PM漂亮一點/蔡健雅
4:23:21 PMTitle/Meghan Trainor
4:31:16 PM如果我變成回憶/TANK
4:35:57 PM別推開我/Red Velvet
4:40:20 PM很大的世界/魏妙如/吳健豪
4:48:35 PMFantasy/Mariah Carey
4:53:13 PM壞蛋特調/J.Sheon

🎁9/15(二)
2:04:03 PMYay/moumoon沐月
2:07:33 PM想你想你/王心凌
2:10:40 PMChill嗨嗨/noovy
2:16:25 PM你就是吃定我/楊乃文
2:20:49 PMThe Reason/Westlife
2:24:35 PM壞壞惹人愛/戴愛玲/信
2:33:57 PMFLOWER SHOWER/泫雅
2:38:11 PM我怎麼哭了/八三夭
2:47:52 PM新相信未來/動靜樂團
2:53:04 PMWhere Have You Been/Rihanna

3:04:15 PM三月雪/洪榮宏/黃妃
3:08:34 PM給妳們/萬芳
3:12:14 PMGlad You Came/The Wanted
3:18:26 PM脫掉/杜德偉
3:22:06 PM瘋狂人生/Ricky Martin
3:31:57 PMNumbers/Jamie/Changmo
3:35:58 PM喜歡寂寞/蘇打綠
3:49:30 PM抱著你/岑寧兒
3:52:23 PM世界中唯一僅有的花/槙原敬之

4:03:57 PM1929/楊肅浩
4:08:28 PM噶瑪蘭的風吹飛懸懸/楊肅浩
4:12:47 PM到這為止/楊肅浩
4:19:30 PM後世人的查某囝/楊肅浩
4:22:43 PM有時/楊肅浩
4:26:55 PM阮的青春 你的汗/楊肅浩
4:35:26 PMOn the floor/JENNIFER LOPEZ
4:40:17 PM草莓蛋糕/范安婷
4:48:55 PM愛要坦蕩蕩/蕭蕭
4:52:45 PM小惡魔茱麗葉/瀧&翼

💎9/14(一)
2:04:51 PM鑽石糖/蕭亞軒
2:08:57 PM轉圈圈/Crispy脆樂團
2:12:58 PMBrave Heart/Hilary Duff
2:18:55 PM完美孤獨/莫文蔚
2:23:41 PM與妳到永久/伍佰
2:27:53 PMMORE & MORE/TWICE
2:35:35 PM對你而言/廖文強/壞神經樂團
2:40:54 PMCome On Over/Christina Aguilera
2:48:35 PM那種人/Marz23
2:53:55 PM東京 Nights/Puffy

3:04:50 PM媽媽你無對我講/孫淑媚
3:09:54 PM末班車/蕭煌
3:19:24 PMKing/Years & Years
3:22:53 PM沒辦法/黃立成/Machi
3:31:41 PM搬家/Lulu黃路梓茵
3:36:37 PMAny Way You Want It/Mary J. Blige
3:48:25 PM回味/彭佳慧
3:53:19 PM不告訴任何人/宇多田光

4:04:38 PM永遠等待/順子
4:09:18 PM愛不來/方大同/葛仲珊
4:13:50 PMKiss and Make Up/Dua Lipa/BLACKPINK
4:19:19 PM我多麼羨慕你/江美琪
4:24:26 PM真面目/蘇慧倫
4:28:22 PMPicture Perfect Love/M-Flo/MONKEY MAGIC
4:38:22 PM諷刺的情書/田馥甄
4:43:34 PM速食餐/素食搖滾客
4:51:28 PM公公偏頭痛/周杰倫
4:54:22 PMNot Fair/Lily Allen

🥁9/11(五)
2:05:02 PM乖貓/蔡依林
2:08:32 PMWhen I grow up/Pussycat Dolls
2:15:07 PM戀/李心潔
2:18:42 PM那曾經/邱鋒澤
2:22:55 PMSomebody To Love/BIGBANG
2:32:17 PM我愛妳不會改變/Bii畢書盡
2:36:37 PMThank You/Dido
2:40:55 PM樂高 Lego/鼓鼓
2:49:39 PM朝陽/Aimyon
2:53:34 PM不存在的情人/林俊傑

3:04:15 PM風吹沙/黃乙玲 feat. 陳盈潔
3:08:43 PMHallucinate/Dua Lipa
3:12:07 PM派對動物/五月天
3:19:14 PM盛夏的果實/莫文蔚
3:23:15 PM不再打擾你/許書豪
3:27:28 PMSPY/SUPER JUNIOR
3:35:51 PM當你孤單你會想起誰/茵聲/劉書宏
3:40:48 PMLEAVIN'遠走高飛/Jesse McCartney
3:47:40 PM叩卡遛/江靜/MCHotDog
3:52:16 PM在你身邊/SoulJa

4:03:56 PM情網/張學友
4:07:54 PMIn Your Time/李秀賢
4:12:14 PM愛上陌生人/廖柏雅
4:18:40 PMBang Bang/Ariana Grande
4:21:55 PMYou Better Not Come Home/Energy
4:30:28 PM還是愛著你/韋禮安
4:34:08 PM昏你/余佩真/亂彈阿翔
4:39:13 PMStranger Like Me/Phil Collins
4:48:06 PMU/劉以豪
4:51:09 PMAll for you/安室奈美惠

🌐9/10(四)
2:04:11 PM愛不離手/蕭亞軒
2:07:30 PM怪物小姐/平井堅/Aimyon
2:11:34 PM早晨瑜伽/Matzka/小S
2:18:08 PMMelody/陶吉吉
2:22:31 PM搬家/Lulu黃路梓茵
2:26:20 PMWho Says/Selena Gomez
2:34:33 PM好不容易/方大同
2:39:57 PM給自己的歌/小男孩樂團
2:43:37 PMSOS/Take That
2:50:29 PM低電量/呂士軒
2:54:43 PMYour song/Love Psychedelico

3:04:15 PM思慕的人/阿信
3:08:15 PM默念你/小宇-宋念宇
3:12:47 PMHustle/P!nk
3:19:27 PMRoly Poly/T-ARA
3:22:51 PMAngeleyes/ABBA
3:32:49 PM活在當夏/綠黃色社會
3:38:14 PM也許有一天/JS
3:41:29 PM新相信未來/動靜樂團
3:50:25 PMGet Over You/Sophie Ellis
3:54:43 PM好難得/丁噹

4:03:56 PM不讓我的眼淚陪我過夜/齊秦
4:08:21 PM不敗的/徐若瑄
4:11:27 PMBack To Me/GOT7
4:19:48 PM飛向你飛向我/旺福
4:23:56 PMCross My Mind/Twin Forks
4:27:35 PM很可以/PER6IX
4:33:03 PM喜歡/張懸(安溥)
4:37:34 PM心動/庾澄慶
4:41:41 PMLong Vacation/Cagnet
4:49:34 PM走吧走吧/劉以豪
4:53:01 PMBetter in time/Leona Lewis

🍎9/9(三)
2:04:04 PMfriDay 超展開/J.Sheon/魏如萱
2:07:45 PMAll Time Low/The Wanted
2:11:03 PMGet Out/MP 魔幻力量
2:17:02 PM火柴天堂/曾沛慈
2:21:39 PM偽裝/李友廷/吳霏、楊碧淇
2:24:14 PMJ STYLE/李準基
2:33:18 PM我愛你這樣深/林隆璇
2:38:40 PMNO RIGHTS NO WRONGS/Jess Glynne
2:47:26 PM這樣愛你好可怕/林凡
2:52:08 PM風箏/嵐

3:04:08 PM1929/楊肅浩
3:08:39 PM從前/萬芳
3:13:39 PMBarcelona/Ed Sheeran
3:19:15 PMLemon Tree/蘇慧倫
3:22:20 PMJust A Little Bit/Claudia/Fatman
3:32:49 PMWatermelon Sugar/Harry Styles
3:36:48 PM愛的代價/梁詠琪
3:40:57 PM少年/周華健
3:49:32 PMRight moves/山下智久
3:53:52 PM守護者/神木與瞳

4:04:03 PM堅固柔情/羅紘武
4:08:05 PMMidnight Sky/Miley Cyrus
4:11:42 PM少女的祈禱/王心凌
4:17:40 PM女人心事/陶晶瑩
4:22:18 PMWind Beneath Your Wings/M.C the MAX
4:26:06 PM今天愛了沒/愷樂
4:34:47 PM不愛自己的人/蔡佩軒
4:41:24 PM味噌湯/手越增田
4:50:45 PM半空/劉以豪
4:54:51 PMMiles Away/Madonna

💜9/8(二)
2:04:00 PM因為有妳在/Dream Girls
2:07:38 PMLarger Than Life/Backstreet Boys
2:11:29 PM城市狂響/許書豪
2:17:19 PM我等你/劉若英
2:21:39 PM擋箭牌/郭修彧
2:26:33 PMWonder Boy/SUPER JUNIOR
2:35:13 PMSPARK/Hilary Duff
2:38:50 PM勇氣/張震嶽
2:47:29 PM流浪者之歌/陳綺貞
2:52:42 PMIdea/星野 源

3:04:15 PM愛到才知痛/黃乙玲
3:08:45 PM忘了我/楊宗緯
3:13:12 PM戴上假睫毛/卡莉怪妞
3:19:54 PMRed 紅色/Taylor Swift
3:23:55 PM真世界/伍佰
3:34:03 PMAtlantis Princess/臉紅的思春期
3:37:37 PM流星小夜曲/陳昇
3:48:03 PM再見錯的人/徐若瑄
3:52:18 PMI Don't Want To Miss A Thing/ Aerosmith

4:03:56 PM九佰九拾九朵玫瑰/邰正宵
4:08:11 PM數字戀愛/范曉萱
4:12:16 PM和我一起玩吧/Cross Gene
4:18:04 PM低電量/呂士軒
4:21:57 PMDon't hang up/Britney Spears
4:25:49 PM怨偶/MC HotDog/艾怡良
4:33:59 PM時光小偷/孫燕姿
4:38:46 PM我不是愛過就算的人/蘇永康
4:43:21 PM朝陽/Aimyon 愛繆
4:50:06 PM有一種悲傷/劉以豪
4:53:58 PM熱情的沙漠/黃小琥

🍡9/7(一)
2:04:04 PM感覺對了/黃鴻升
2:07:49 PMMusic Life/FT ISLAND
2:12:49 PM相信你的人/陳奕迅
2:17:09 PM愛情字典/孫燕姿
2:20:53 PMMaps/Maroon 5
2:29:09 PM深海/張學友
2:33:15 PM不愛自己的人/蔡佩軒
2:38:12 PM戀愛祭典/NEWS
2:47:20 PM如果我們只剩一首歌的時間/何韻詩
2:52:57 PMLay All Your Love On Me/ABBA

3:04:08 PM我若不曾愛過你/動力火車
3:08:36 PMBeautiful Love/蔡健雅
3:13:24 PMOHIO/Crush
3:20:51 PM起床歌/曹格
3:24:50 PMCandyman/Christina Aguilera
3:33:20 PM刻在我心底的名字/盧廣仲
3:38:30 PMLucky/Jason Mraz
3:42:44 PM戀愛花蕾/倖田來未
3:49:34 PM親愛的小孩/張信哲
3:53:25 PMLove Me Like You Do/Ellie Goulding

4:04:09 PM一路順風/草蜢
4:07:44 PM愛情雨/9m88
4:10:39 PMHello/安室奈美惠
4:16:43 PMexile/Taylor Swift
4:21:16 PM步步/五月天
4:25:44 PM摩天動物園/鄧紫棋
4:35:06 PMHoney/郭書瑤
4:38:21 PMFLOWER SHOWER/泫雅
4:42:35 PM愛錯/王力宏
4:51:49 PMU/劉以豪
4:54:52 PMDream On/Roxette

👒9/4(五)
2:04:41 PMLAST FRIDAY NIGHT/Katy Perry
2:08:28 PM起來/杜德偉
2:11:53 PM國王皇后/大嘴巴
2:17:24 PM我們都被忘了/謝安琪
2:21:54 PMLittle by little/CHEEZE
2:26:14 PM小男人大男孩/蕭敬騰
2:34:46 PMRunaway/Janet Jackson
2:38:17 PM問號/黃右年/屁孩
2:42:29 PM人生有限公司/五月天
2:49:18 PM紅色沙漠的傳說/島谷瞳
2:54:08 PM冷水澡/梁文音/胖虎樂團

3:04:14 PM含淚跳恰恰/謝金燕
3:07:33 PMMaria/Ricky Martin
3:11:59 PMizuwa 有/阿爆(阿仍仍)
3:17:37 PM幸福了 然後呢/A-Lin
3:22:40 PM花水木/德永英明
3:27:52 PM功夫狂潮/F.I.R.飛兒樂團/范逸臣
3:36:59 PM容顏/徐哲緯
3:40:24 PM愛笑的眼睛/徐若瑄
3:45:56 PMOne in a million/山下智久
3:51:41 PM卡通人生/郭采潔
3:54:42 PMI'm In Love/JTR

4:03:56 PM大雨/金智娟
4:08:53 PM如果我變成一首歌/林宥嘉
4:13:47 PM像我一樣的女孩/gugudan
4:19:42 PM甩一甩/葛仲珊/比莉
4:23:27 PMVenus/No Angels
4:31:21 PM我們都寂寞/陳奕迅
4:36:04 PM痊癒/許莉潔
4:40:45 PMLove Game/安室奈美惠
4:49:28 PM低電量/呂士軒
4:52:57 PMIf I Told You That/Whitney HoustonMy

🍿9/3(四)
2:04:41 PM落大雨/S.H.E
2:08:49 PMLove You Lately/Daniel Powter
2:11:42 PM轉圈圈/Crispy脆樂團
2:17:55 PM西班牙狂想曲/黃湘怡
2:21:18 PMMOJITO/周杰倫
2:24:20 PMLa Tortura/Shakira
2:32:52 PM愛情那麼傻/品冠
2:37:38 PMRose/李遐怡 (LEE HI)
2:42:10 PMDon't Worry About Me/瘦子E.SO
2:48:26 PM遇見未來/JS
2:53:01 PMPop Star/平井堅

3:04:15 PM上美麗的情歌/Lulu黃路梓茵
3:09:01 PM會呼吸的痛/梁靜茹
3:13:30 PMMr.Simple/SUPER JUNIOR
3:21:24 PMMercy/Duffy 黛菲
3:24:56 PM主動/溫嵐
3:34:02 PMBlood Pressure/Attractions
3:39:30 PM怎麼了/周興哲
3:49:02 PM愛人錯過/告五人
3:54:54 PMYou Can't Hurry Love/Diana Ross

4:03:56 PM青春夢/譚詠麟
4:08:47 PM我們不像我們/丁噹
4:12:50 PMEcho/少女時代
4:18:45 PM愛無所畏/呂薔
4:22:17 PMLet's Go (Feat. Ne-Yo)/Calvin Harris
4:31:13 PM背叛情歌/動力火車
4:36:08 PM無名花/鄭心慈
4:41:08 PMAdventure Of A Lifetime/Coldplay
4:48:59 PM人生地熟/呂士軒
4:51:58 PMFlowerwall/米津玄師

🎖️9/2(三)
2:04:34 PM杜U Love Me/王力宏
2:07:43 PMShape Of You/Ed Sheeron
2:11:34 PM頭號甜心/張韶涵
2:17:25 PM甘願/彭佳慧
2:21:12 PM屬於你和我之間的事/吳建豪
2:25:12 PMElectric Heart/SHINee
2:33:23 PMI Stay In Love/Mariah Carey
2:37:41 PM我沒有用， 沒辦法給你想要的生活/怕胖團
2:41:33 PM好喜歡好喜歡你/Dreams Come True
2:49:29 PMSoul Searching/江靜
2:53:22 PMBecause Of You/Ne-Yo

3:04:00 PM思念你的心肝你敢知/曾心梅
3:08:46 PMGoodbye My Lover/James Blunt
3:12:56 PMi will be fine/魏如萱
3:19:08 PMCan't Get You Out Of My Head/Kylie Minogue
3:22:43 PM眉飛色舞PLUS/八三夭/鄭秀文
3:31:24 PMTake Yourself Home/Troye Sivan
3:34:14 PM輸情歌/J.Sheon
3:38:59 PM我的Superstar/徐若瑄
3:45:24 PM戀愛寫真/大塚 愛
3:50:12 PMMojito/玖壹壹/NEOSO 搏感情
3:54:10 PM真的假的/陶晶瑩

4:04:04 PM閃亮的心永遠愛你/紅孩兒
4:08:03 PMKill This Love/BLACKPINK
4:11:09 PM妙妙妙/徐懷鈺
4:16:52 PM你離開他了嗎/曾沛慈
4:21:02 PM等我回來/郭富城
4:25:18 PMBurning In The Skies/Linkin Park
4:34:48 PMFree/Charlie Puth
4:39:51 PM瀟灑小姐/蕭亞軒
4:52:52 PM大特醉/呂士軒
4:55:47 PM365/Zedd/Katy Perry
4:58:46 PM射手/MP 魔幻力量

💗9/1(二)
2:03:57 PM喔伊細/徐佳瑩
2:07:28 PMThe Other Side Of Down/David Archuleta
2:10:40 PM瘋狂世界/五月天
2:16:43 PM如果你愛我/蔡健雅
2:20:55 PM海嘯/庾澄慶
2:25:32 PM偶然的春天/Loco/GFRIEND-Yu
2:33:16 PM I Cry/Flo Rida
2:37:22 PM受夠/周興哲
2:43:48 PM為你我受冷風吹/林憶蓮
2:50:05 PMDon't Worry About Me/瘦子E.SO
2:54:18 PMGood Life 美好人生/時尚一派

3:04:15 PM淡水的月光/施文彬
3:07:42 PM真實/張惠妹
3:12:09 PMDon't You Worry Child/Beth
3:17:57 PM太空瑪莉的偵探愛情電影/許哲珮
3:21:12 PMCrazy Crazy/星野 源
3:24:39 PMCelebrate/Mika 米卡
3:33:01 PMhow do i/NIve
3:36:32 PM假面的告白/蔡依林
3:41:39 PMHug Yourself/郭修彧
3:47:47 PM依賴/小安
3:49:40 PM無名花/鄭心慈
3:54:40 PMSorry/Justin Bieber

4:03:56 PM明天我要嫁給你/李度
4:08:15 PMIn Your Name/李秀賢
4:12:33 PM鞋子特大號/周杰倫
4:18:43 PMI Knew You Were Trouble/Taylor Swift
4:22:20 PM樣板人生/胖虎樂團
4:27:02 PM飛行部落/F.I.R.飛兒樂團
4:36:05 PM不敢聽的歌/李千那
4:40:22 PM相送/自由發揮/梁文音
4:46:32 PMBecause of You/w-inds.
4:52:56 PM獨享餐/呂士軒/羅莎莎
4:56:09 PMAlone/Alan Walker/IseAlone

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My sister, Michelle-Ann Iking's 3% chance of conceiving naturally was a success! Here's her story:

(My apologies as I've been overwhelmed with personal matters. I've only managed to get to my desk. So finally got around posting this).

This is the story behind my sister's pregnancy struggle and how she shared her journey over her Facebook page.

Because some may have not caught her LIVE session chat with me (https://www.facebook.com/daphneiking/videos/687743128744960/) , or read her lengthy post (as it's a private page);
she's allowed me to copy and paste it over my wall, in case you need to know more about her thought process on how AND why she focused on the 3% success probability. Read on.

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Posted 10th May 2020.
FB Credit: Michelle-Ann Iking

A week ago today I celebrated becoming a mother to our second, long awaited child.

Please forgive this mother's LONG (self-indulgent) post, journalling what this significant milestone has meant for her personally, for her own fallible memory's sake as well as maybe to share one day with her son.

If all you were wondering was whether I had delivered and if mum and bub are OK, please be assured the whole KkLM family are thriving tremendously, and continue scrolling right along your Newsfeed 😁.

OUR 3% MIRACLE

All babies are miracles... and none more so than our precious Kiaen Aaryan (pronounced KEY-n AR-yen), whose name derives from Sanskrit origins meaning:

Grace of God
Spiritual
Kind
Benevolent

...words espousing the gratitude Kishore and I feel for Kiaen's arrival as our "3% miracle".

He was conceived, naturally, after 3 years of Kishore and I hoping, praying and 'endeavoring'... and only couples for whom the objective switches from pure recreation to (elusive) procreation will understand how this is less fun than it sounds ...

3 years during which time we had consensus from 3 different doctors that we, particularly I (with my advancing age etc etc) had only a 3% chance of natural conception and that our best hope for a sibling for our firstborn, Lara Anoushka, was via IVF.

Lara herself was an 'intervention baby', being one of the 20% of babies successfully conceived through the less intrusive IUI process, after a year and a half of trying naturally and already being told then my age was a debilitating factor.

We had tried another round of IUI for her sibling in 2017 when Lara was a year old. And that time we fell into the ranks of the 80% of would-be parents for whom it would be an exercise in futility... who would go home, comfort each other as best they could, while individually masking their own personal disappointment... hoping for the best, 'the next time around'...

So the improbability ratio of 97% against natural conception of our second baby, as concurred by the combined opinion of 3 medical professionals, was a very real, very daunting figure for us to have to mentally deal with.

Deep, DEEP, down in my heart however, though I had many a day of doubt... I kept a core kernel of faith that somehow, I would again experience the privilege of pregnancy, and again, have a chance at childbirth.

And so, the optimist in me would tell myself, "Well, there have to be people who fall in the 3% bucket... why shouldn't WE be part of the 3%?"

Those who know me well, understand my belief in the Law of Attraction, the philosophy of focusing your mind only on what you want to attract, not on what you don't want, and so even as Kishore and I prepared to go into significant personal debt to attempt IVF in the 2nd half of 2019, I marshalled a last ditch effort to hone in on that 3% chance of natural conception... through research coming across fertility supplements that I ordered from the US and sent to a friend in Singapore to redirect to me because the supplier would not deliver to Malaysia.

I made us as a couple take the supplements in the 3 month 'priming period' in the lead up to the IVF procedure - preconditioning our bodies for optimum results, if you will.

At the same time, I had invested in a sophisticated fertility monitor, with probes and digital sensors for daily tracking of saliva and other unmentionable fluid samples, designed to pinpoint with chemical accuracy my state of fertility on any given day.

(UPDATE: For those interested - I obtained the supplements and Ovacue Fertility Monitor from https://www.fairhavenhealth.com/. Though I had my supplies delivered to a friend in Singapore, and redirected to me here since the US site does not deliver to Malaysia, there are local distributors for these products, you will just have to research the trustworthiness of the vendors yourself...)

I had set an intention - in the 3 months of pre-IVF priming, I would consume what seemed like a pharmacy's worth of supplements, and track fertility religiously... in hopes that somehow, within the 3 month priming period, we would conceive naturally and potentially save ourselves a down payment on a new property... and this was just a projection on financial costs of IVF, not even considering the physical, emotional and mental toll it involves, with no guarantee of a baby at the end of it all...

It was a continuation of an intention embedded even with my first pregnancy, where all the big ticket baby items were consciously purchased for use by a future sibling, in gender neutral colours, in hopes that sibling would be a brother "for a balanced pair", though of course any healthy child would be a welcome blessing.

It was a very conscious determination to always skew my thoughts in service of what the end objective was. For example, when 3+year old Lara would innocently express impatience at not yet having a sibling, at one point suggesting that since we were "taking too long to give her a baby brother/sister", perhaps we should just "go buy a baby from a shop", instead of getting defensive or berating the baby that she herself was, we enlisted Lara's help to pray for her sibling... so in any place of worship, or sacred ground of any kind that we passed thereon, Lara would stop, close her eyes, bow her small head and place her tiny hands together in prayer, reciting earnestly, "Please God, please give me a baby brother or baby sister."

After months and months of watching Lara do this, in the constancy of her childlike chant, Kishore started feeling the pressure of possibly disappointing Lara if her prayer was not answered. Whereas for me, Lara's recitation of her simple wish became like a strengthening mantra, our collective intention imbued with greater power with each repetition, and the goal of a sibling kept very much in the forefront of our minds (hence our calling Lara our 'project manager' in this endeavour).

And somehow in the 2nd month of that 3 month period, a positive + sign appeared on one of the home pregnancy tests I had grown accustomed to taking - my version of the lottery tickets others keep buying in hopes of hitting the jackpot, with all the cyclical anticipation and more often than not, disappointment, that entails...

This time however I was not disappointed.

With God's Grace, (hence 'Kiaen', a variation of 'Kiaan' which means 'Grace of God'), my focus on our joining the ranks of the 3% had materialised.

It seems poetic then, that Kiaen chose to make his appearance on the 3rd May, ironically the same date that his paternal great-grandfather departed this world for the next... such that in the combined words of Kishore and his father Kai Vello Suppiah,

"The 1st generation Suppiah left on 3rd May and the 4th generation Suppiah arrived on 3rd May after 41yrs...
One leaves, another comes, the legacy lives on..."

***

KIAEN AARYAN SUPPIAH'S BIRTH STORY

On Sunday 3rd May, I was 40 weeks and 5 days pregnant.

The baby was, in my mind, very UN-fashionably late past his due date of 29th April, so as much as I had willed and 'manifested' the privilege of pregnancy, to say I was keen to be done with it all was an understatement.

In the weeks leading to up to my full term, I had experienced increasingly intense Braxton-Hicks 'practice contractions' - annoying for me for the discomfort involved, stressful for Kishore who was on tenterhooks with the false alarms, on constant alert for when we would actually need to leave home for the hospital.

Having become a Hypnobirthing student and advocate from my first pregnancy with Lara, and thus being equipped with
(1) a lack of fear about childbirth in general and
(2) a basic understanding of how all the sensations I would experience fit into the big picture of my body bringing our baby closer to us,
I was less stressed - content to wait for the baby to be "fully cooked" and come out whenever he was ready... though I wouldn't have minded at all if the cooking time ended sooner, rather than later.

With Lara, I had been somewhat 'forced' into an induced labour, even though she was not yet due, and that had resulted in a 5 DAY LABOUR, a Birth Story for another post, so I was not inclined to chemically induce labour, even though I was assured that for second time mothers, it would be 'much faster and easier'...

That morning, I had a hunch *maybe* that day was the day, because in contrast to previous weeks' sensations of tightening, pressure and even spasms that were concentrated in the front of my abdomen and occasionally shot through my sides and legs, I felt period - like cramping in my lower back which I had not felt before throughout the pregnancy.

It was about 8am in the morning then, and my 'surges' were still relatively mild ('surges' being Hypnobirthing - speak for 'contractions', designed to frame them with the more positive connotations needed to counteract common language in which childbirth is presented as something that is unequivocally painful and traumatic, instead of the miraculous, powerful and natural phenomenon it actually is).

I recall (masochistically?) entertaining the thought of opting NOT to have an epidural JUST TO SEE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE...

I figured this would be the last time I would be pregnant and so it would be my 'last chance' to experience 'drug free labour' which, apart from the health benefits for baby and mother, might be *interesting* in a way that people who are curious about what getting a tattoo and skydiving and bungee jumping are like, might find these *interesting*...even knowing there will be pain and risk involved...

Since I have tried tattoos and skydiving (unfortunately not being able to squeeze in bungee-jumping while my life was purely my own to risk at no dependents' possible detriment) a similar curiousity about a no-epidural labour was on my mind...

In the absence of other signs of the onset of labour (like 'bloody show' or my waters breaking), I wanted to wait until the surges were coming every few minutes before we actually left the house for the hospital, not wanting to be one of those couples who rushed in too early and had interminable waits for the next stage in unfamiliar, clinical surroundings and/or were made to go home in an anti-climatic manner.

I was even calm enough through my surges to have the presence of mind to wash and blowdry my hair, knowing if I did deliver soon I would not be allowed this luxury for a while.

Around 9am I asked Kishore to prep for Lara and himself to be dressed and breakfasted so we could head to hospital soon, while I sent messages to family members on both sides informing them 'today might be the day.'

My mother, who had briefly served as a midwife before going back into general nursing and then becoming a nursing tutor, prophetically stated that if what I was experiencing was true labour, "the baby would be out by noon".

The pace in which my surges grew closer together was surprisingly quicker than I expected; and while I asked Lara to "Hurry up with breakfast" with only a tad more urgency than we normally tell her to do, little Missy being prone to dilly-dallying at meals, I probably freaked Kishore out when about 930am onwards, I had to instinctively get on my hands and knees a couple of times, eyes closed, trying to practice the Hypnobirthing breathing techniques I had revised to help along the process of my body birthing our child into the world.

I recall him saying a bit frantically as I knelt at our front door, doubled over as he waited for Lara to complete something or other, "Lara hurry up! Can't you see Mama is in so much pain and you are taking your own sweet time??!!"

SIDETRACK: Just the night before, Lara and I had watched a TV show in which a woman gave birth with the usual histrionics accompanying pop culture depictions of labour.

Lara watched the scene, transfixed.

I told her, simply and matter-of-factly, "That's what Mama has to do to get baby brother out Lara, and that's what I had to do for you also."

In most of interactions with my daughter, I have sought to equip her to face life's situations with calmness, truthful common sense, and ideally a minimum of drama.

Those who know the dramatic diva that Lara can be will know that this is a work-in-progress, but her response to me that night showed me some of my 'teachings' were sinking in:

She looked at me unfazed, "But Mama," she said. "You won't cry and scream like that lady, right? You will be BRAVE and stay calm, right?"
#nopressure.

So as we prepped to leave for the hospital I did indeed attempt to be that role model of calm for her, asking her only for her help in keeping very quiet,
"Because Mama needs to focus on bringing baby brother out and she needs quiet to concentrate...".

As we left the house at 10.11am, I texted Kishore's sister Geetha to please prep to pick up Lara from the hospital, and was grateful Kishore had the foresight to ask our gynae to prepare a letter for Geetha to show any police roadblocks between my in-laws' home in Subang Jaya and the hospital in Bangsar, this all happening under the Movement Control Order (MCO).

To Lara's credit, in the journey over to the hospital, she - probably sensing the gravity of the situation, sat very quietly in her seat at the back, and the silence was punctuated only by my occasional deep intakes of breath and some variation of my Ohmmm-like moans when the sensations were at their height.

By the time we got to Pantai Hospital at around 10.30am, my surges were strong enough I requested a wheelchair to assist me in getting to the labour ward, as I did not trust my own legs to support me... and Kishore would have to wait until Geetha had arrived to take Lara back to my in-laws' house before he himself could go up.

I slumped in the wheelchair and was wheeled up to the labour room with my eyes closed the whole time, trying to handle my surges.

I didn't even look up to see the attendant who pushed me... but did make the effort to thank him sincerely when he handed me over, with what seemed like a palpable sense of relief on his part, to the labour ward nurses.

The nurse attending me at Pantai was calm, steady and efficient. I answered some questions and changed into my labour gown while waiting for Kishore to come up, all the while managing the increasingly intense surges with my rusty Hypnobirthing breathing techniques.

By the time Kishore joined me at around 11am (I know these timings based on the timestamps of the 'WhatsApp live feed' of messages Kishore sent to his family), I was asking the nurse on duty, "How soon can I get an epidural??" thinking what crazy woman thought she could do this without drugs???!!!

The nurse checked my cervix dilation, I saw her bloodied glove indicating my mucous plug had dislodged, and she told me, "Well you are already at 7cm (which, for the uninitiated, is 70% of the way to the 10cm dilation needed for birthing), you are really doing well, if you made it this far without any drugs, if can you try and manage without it... I suspect within 2 hours or less you will deliver your baby and since it will take about that time for the anaesthesiologist to be called, epidural to be administered and kick in... it might all be for nothing... but of course the decision is completely up to you... "

So there I was, super torn, should I risk the sensations becoming worse... or risk the epidural becoming a waste?? And of course I was trying to decide this as my labour surges were coming at me stronger and stronger...

I was in such a dilemma...because as a 'recovering approval junkie' there was also a silly element of approval-seeking involved, ("The nurse thinks I can do this without drugs... maybe I CAN do this without drugs... Yay me!") mixed with that element of curiosity I mentioned earlier ("What if I actually CAN do this without drugs... plenty of other women have done it all over the world since time immemorial.. no big deal, how bad can it be...??") so then I thought I would use the financial aspect to be the 'tiebreaker' in my decision making...

I asked the nurse how much an epidural would cost and when she replied "Around MYR1.5k", I still remember Kishore's incredulous face as I asked the question, i.e."Seriously babe, you are gonna think about money right now? If you need the epidural TAKE IT, don't worry about the money!!!"... and while we are not rich by any stretch of the imagination, thankfully RM1.5k is not a quantum that made me swing towards a decision to "better save the money"...

So in the end, I guess my curiosity won out, and I turned down the epidural "just to see what it would be like and if I had it in me" (in addition of course to avoiding the side effects of any drugs introduced into my and the baby's body).

My labour occuring in the time of coronavirus, it was protocol for me to have a COVID19 test done, so the medical staff could apply the necessary precautions. I had heard from a friend Sharon Ruba that the test procedure was uncomfortable, so when the nurse came with the test kit as I was starting another surge, I asked, "Please can I just finish this surge before I do the test?" as I really didn't think I could multitask tackling multiple uncomfortable sensations in one go.

The COVID19 test involved what felt like a looong, skinny cotton bud being inserted into one nostril... I definitely felt more than a tickle as it went in and up, being told to take deep breaths by the nurse. Then she asked me to "Try to swallow" and I felt it go into my nasal cavities where I didn't think anything could go any further, but was proven wrong when she asked me to swallow again and the swab was probed even deeper. Then she warned me there would be some slight discomfort as she prepared to collect a sample... but at that point all I could think about was:

(i) I really don't have much of a choice
(ii) please let this be over before my next surge kicks in
(iii) if all the people breaking the MCO rules knew what it feels like to do this test maybe they won't put themselves at risk of the need to perform one...

In full disclosure as I was transferred into the actual delivery room at some point after 11am, another nurse offered me 'laughing gas' to ostensibly take some of the edge off... I took the self-operated breathing nozzle passed to me but don't recall it making any difference to my sensations..so didn't use it much as it seemed pretty pointless.

I recall some measure of relief when I heard my gynae Dr. Paul entering the room, greeting Kishore and me, and telling us it was going well and it wouldn't be long now and he would see us again shortly.

From my previous labour with Lara I knew the midwives pretty much take you 90% of the way through the labour and when the Dr is called in you are really at the home stretch, so was very relieved to hear his voice though knowing he would leave and come back later meant it wasn't quite over yet.

I do remember realising when I had crossed the Thinning and Opening Phase of labour to the Birthing Phase, by the change in sensations... it is still amazing to me that as the Hypnobirthing book mentioned, having this knowledge I was instinctively able to switch breathing techniques for the next stage of labour .

Was my opting against epidural the right choice for me?

Overall? Yes.

Don't get me wrong.

I *almost* regretted the decision several times during active labour... especially when I felt my body being taken over by an overwhelming compulsion to push that did not seem conscious and was accompanied by involuntary gutteral moans where I literally just thought to myself, "I surrender, God do with me what you will..." (super dramatic I know but VERY real at the time...).

I think I experienced 3-4 such natural explusive reflexes (?), rhythmically pushing the baby down the birth path, one of which was accompanied by what felt like a swoosh of water coming out of a hose with a diameter the size of a golf ball... this was when I realised my water had finally broken...

The nurses kept instructing me to do different things, to keep breathing, to move to my side, then to move to the middle, to raise my feet... and when I didn't comply, Kishore (who was with me throughout both my labours) tried to help them by repeating the instructions prefaced with "Sayang..." but I basically ignored all the intructions because I felt I had no capacity to direct any part of my body to do anything and someone else would have to physically manoeuvre that body part themselves.

When I heard Dr. Paul's voice again and the flurry of commotion surrounding his presence, I knew the time was close... and when I heard the nurse say to Kishore, "Sir, these are your gloves, for when you cut the baby's cord", it was music to my ears...

I'm very, VERY grateful Kiaen slid out after maybe the 4th of those involuntary pushes... the wave of RELIEF when he came out so quickly... it still boggles my mind that my mother was essentially right and as his birth time was 12.02pm, it was *only* about 1.5 hours between our arrival at the hospital and his arrival into the world.

Kiaen was placed on my chest for skin to skin bonding and remained there for a considerable time.

For our short stay in the hospital he would be with us in my maternity ward number C327... another trivially serendipitous sign for me because he was born on the 3rd (May) and our wedding anniversary is 27th (July).

I was discharged the following day 4th May at about 5.30pm, after I got an all clear on COVID19 and a paediatric surgeon did a small procedure on Kiaen to address a tongue-tie that would affect his breastfeeding latch... making the entire duration of our stay about 31 hours.

I have taken the time and effort to record all this down so that whenever life's challenges threaten to get me down I can remind myself, "Ignore the 97% failure probability, focus on the 3% success probability".

Also that the human condition is miraculous and it is such a privilege to experience it.

To our son Kiaen Aaryan, thank you for coming into our lives and choosing us as your parents.

Even though Papa and I are both zombies trying to settle into a night time feeding routine with you, I look forward to spending not only all future Mother's Days, but every day, with you and your Akka...

And last but not least, to my husband Kishore...without whom none of this would be possible - we did it sayang, I love you ❤️

Photo credit: Stayhome session with Samantha Yong Photography (http://samanthayong.com/)

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The world is full of bad but also a whole lot of good. In this new News Show I want to focus on the bright side of life and share some real life News stories that will make you feel more positive about the world.

This is a new series that I am trying and I would love to know what you think about this funny positive news series!

In this News Show I talk about the following stories:

"Anti-Viral Drug Combo Cured Woman of Coronavirus Just 48 Hours After Treatment"

"Peanut Allergy Treatment Just Approved as First-of-its-Kind Therapy in the United States"

"Woman finds dog lost for 3 years after seeing its picture on beer can"

"One Man Is Hosting 15 Super Bowl Parties For The Homeless"

"Stray Dog Named 'Sausage' Gets Appreciation Star For Helping Kindergartners Cross The Road"

"The indigenous Waorani community of Ecuador won a landmark case against oil companies this year, protecting 180,000 hectares of their land against exploitation"

"The Philippines passed a Universal Health Care Act, entitling all of its 107 million citizens to health insurance and medical treatment"

"New research showed that the proportion of people in extreme poverty around the world fell from 36% in 1990 to 8.6% in 2018. Absolute numbers were down from 1.9 billion in 1990 to 610 million in 2018"

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